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Last public post was abrupt and more maudlin than I intended. I’m alright; it’s more that I’m on a slow process of... healing, for lack of a better word. Adjustment? Learning?
‘Get out more, go to meetups and experience new things’ is, very generally, sound advice. But I don’t think I’ll ever have that experience of finding My People. My brain is not good at social relationships, and I’ve been reclusive and sore and very unlucky (e.g. in my very first group assignment someone borderline threatened me cos they thought I stole their stuff lols) for a long time.
This sounds like a maudlin post again, dammit! It’s more like, positive things are happening, but it’s less that I’ve found My People and rather, every time I go to a tutorial or a meetup or something, I feel 0.01% less awful than I did previously.
I think in the state I’m in, the slow improvement is honestly necessary. And also, the longer this semester goes, the more I realise me being a total mess last semester was honestly inevitable and it’s a miracle I got through it. XD;
Anyway! My assignments are spread all over the calendar this semester and the first is due this Friday, so I haven’t been doing much besides uni. I started a new hobby, but I’ll probably post about that under lock (it’s under a different username I’m keeping separate for reasons). But the first order of today is cleaning the fridge cos it’s yuuuucky, so I better get on that already...
‘Get out more, go to meetups and experience new things’ is, very generally, sound advice. But I don’t think I’ll ever have that experience of finding My People. My brain is not good at social relationships, and I’ve been reclusive and sore and very unlucky (e.g. in my very first group assignment someone borderline threatened me cos they thought I stole their stuff lols) for a long time.
This sounds like a maudlin post again, dammit! It’s more like, positive things are happening, but it’s less that I’ve found My People and rather, every time I go to a tutorial or a meetup or something, I feel 0.01% less awful than I did previously.
I think in the state I’m in, the slow improvement is honestly necessary. And also, the longer this semester goes, the more I realise me being a total mess last semester was honestly inevitable and it’s a miracle I got through it. XD;
Anyway! My assignments are spread all over the calendar this semester and the first is due this Friday, so I haven’t been doing much besides uni. I started a new hobby, but I’ll probably post about that under lock (it’s under a different username I’m keeping separate for reasons). But the first order of today is cleaning the fridge cos it’s yuuuucky, so I better get on that already...
