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[gb]

Fun fact:

I have a lingering, looming fear of saying the wrong name (especially something ludicrous) during sex.

This is funnier in context:
1) this has literally never happened to me
2) I haven't even had sex for about eight years
3) and yet I'm flipping out over the very possibility, while sitting alone in my mother's lounge room

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[alias_sqbr]

So. I thought to myself "Huh, I used to have that fear and now I don't, why is that? Because we're poly now? Or...OH NO. I REMEMBER"

See like 15 years ago Cam was playing video games with another dude, let's call him G, who he had only the very vaguest physical resemblance to. I rarely touch people I'm not dating, and nor does he. And I somehow got them confused and spent some minutes draped over G, playing with his hair etc before realising my mistake.

I was mortified, and everyone agreed it was a weirdass thing to do, but Cam, G, and G's girlfriend all believed that it had been a weird brainfart rather than me being Secretly In Love With G and mostly just found it funny.

It was overall one of the more mortifying experiences of my life, but did mean I could feel confident that if I did any more dumbass things like that going forward Cam could roll with it. And I feel like any partner you had a decent relationship with would do the same.

[gb]

Ahahahaha oh dear, that is a good story but I can imagine the h o r r o r. I'm glad it had a long-term benefit! I don't think I've ever met Cam, but he seems like a good egg.

Now I think about it, I think my fear is just a variant of my (also wildly disproportionate) fear of Everyone Will Find Out What A Nerd I Am, because my bank of names is now filled with really weird entries I barely know how to pronounce and my brain does in fact throw unrelated keywords into my stream of consciousness while I'm trying to do other stuff.

But that shouldn't be a big deal. I mean, everyone already knows what a huge nerd I am. Brains are ridic.

[alias_sqbr]

Haha yeah I am still paranoid all my friends will realise what a weirdo I am, as if they had any chance of avoiding that knowledge by now :)