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gbThe rest of this post is whining (and some legit concern) so here's the good bit and you can skip the rest: Rotterdam Termination Source playing Poing live with a mouth harp
Can't tell if having another depressive episode or if the cold is getting worse :U Either way my body/brain situation is just stuffed and it's having a knock on effect; I have so much visual diary work to catch up on! and I passed today's French test but only after turning up with no pen, to the wrong class, for the wrong French unit... and sitting through the wrong test before I realised. :3c
I dropped a unit, but can't drop any more. I shouldn't need to anyway! I am completely capable of doing the work given to me in the time that I have, but my meat shell is being utter garbage. Today, I got home feeling like I just crawled across the tundra and passed out on the couch for hours.
I'm a bit worried tbh. If I'm coming down with something legit nasty or the depression gets dicey, Ye olde housemate is away and unlike her, I don't have people who would a) notice, or b) bring me soup. I don't feel comfortable ever saying 'hey I'd like to hang out because things are shitty right now' and the last time I tried that, the people I was with went on such a vent session that I felt even shittier afterwards, which isn't their fault but euuugh...
picture me taking my glasses off and rubbing my eyelids here.
I'm aware I'm on the pity me hamster wheel again and I knew university would be challenging, and so far I'm doing okay even. I hadn't expected to be starting a scary thing while in a major hobby black spot/dark tea time, so ill I'm having trouble functioning, and almost completely isolated, is all.
Can't tell if having another depressive episode or if the cold is getting worse :U Either way my body/brain situation is just stuffed and it's having a knock on effect; I have so much visual diary work to catch up on! and I passed today's French test but only after turning up with no pen, to the wrong class, for the wrong French unit... and sitting through the wrong test before I realised. :3c
I dropped a unit, but can't drop any more. I shouldn't need to anyway! I am completely capable of doing the work given to me in the time that I have, but my meat shell is being utter garbage. Today, I got home feeling like I just crawled across the tundra and passed out on the couch for hours.
I'm a bit worried tbh. If I'm coming down with something legit nasty or the depression gets dicey, Ye olde housemate is away and unlike her, I don't have people who would a) notice, or b) bring me soup. I don't feel comfortable ever saying 'hey I'd like to hang out because things are shitty right now' and the last time I tried that, the people I was with went on such a vent session that I felt even shittier afterwards, which isn't their fault but euuugh...
picture me taking my glasses off and rubbing my eyelids here.
I'm aware I'm on the pity me hamster wheel again and I knew university would be challenging, and so far I'm doing okay even. I hadn't expected to be starting a scary thing while in a major hobby black spot/dark tea time, so ill I'm having trouble functioning, and almost completely isolated, is all.
