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gbAt the same time as the previous post, I Feel this intense tug-and-pull, where I find what I'd roughly categorise as Nerd Shit infuriating to listen to but the other extremity that conversations I'd be in would go to is hardcore politics and bad things that happened to them lately and 'Hey have you heard about that latest case of internet men harassing people lately?' So it's like my choices are 'irritated at consumerism' and 'depressed AF'
It's rather laughable that I'm passing judgement on other people's statements, when I haven't seen more than two or so people IRL who aren't family for months, now.
Is it just that I'm imbalanced? That I don't know what I want? That I want some kind of Goldilocks zone of social interaction that is realistically impossible to achieve? I don't know. But other people I know can rely on their social networks when they feel bad; I tried that, and I came out of it feeling more dissatisfied and fucked-up and convinced that life is horrid and meaningless than ever before.
I mean, it doesn't help that they keep talking about the same dang cartoon crossover nigh-every time I see them.
Lots of dissatisfaction lately. Please excuse me.
It's rather laughable that I'm passing judgement on other people's statements, when I haven't seen more than two or so people IRL who aren't family for months, now.
Is it just that I'm imbalanced? That I don't know what I want? That I want some kind of Goldilocks zone of social interaction that is realistically impossible to achieve? I don't know. But other people I know can rely on their social networks when they feel bad; I tried that, and I came out of it feeling more dissatisfied and fucked-up and convinced that life is horrid and meaningless than ever before.
I mean, it doesn't help that they keep talking about the same dang cartoon crossover nigh-every time I see them.
Lots of dissatisfaction lately. Please excuse me.
